Will I find someone to love me and stand by me? Feeling very alone and lost?

Ok, girl, lets work on what needs to be worked on, your self esteem. You are depressed. Got it. Now, what started you into this depression. It wasn't the break up. You were depressed before that. I suggest that you go back to school. Getting your mind back on your studies, work on your life plan. Where do you want to be 1 week from now, 1 month. 1 year etc? You need to take your mind off of the crappy people around you. True friends are those who when they hear something bad is going on in your life, they come to comfort you and help you through it, not turn their back on you May I suggest a make-over. If you need to drop a few pounds, work on that, Set goals and reward your self when you achieve them. When they say love is blind, they mean it. You were so in love that you didn't notice how selfish he was. You will find someone better suited when you return to school. When did you start thinking you don't deserve the best. Quit thinking about the depression, the Ex, and the mean people and get angry that he was such a jerk and left when things got rough. He is the one who is loosing out. You are a caring person. Now is the time and the place to start seeing the new you. Get strong. Try a new hair do, paint your nails, take up a hobby, quit feeling sorry for yourself and do something positive just for you! I am here. You can contact me trhough email if you want to talk, I will listen, but don't expect me to pity you, I want to help. Good luck